Okay... let me explain. I feel like I am aware of who my close friends are... I mean really good friends, people I would depend on in a crisis, would call if I needed a shoulder to cry on, would take a trip with, hell -would even let into my home. (This number is quite small). In fact, some people who were once friends are now no longer, I have no qualms with parting from people who are no good for my life. So this group of friends is quite protected and I do a thorough screening process before I am okay with allowing people to join this club. (It's not that I think I'm so great, it just is exhausting having bad friends.)
I'm diverting from my point. Soooo what has never occurred to me that someone would consider me a great close friend, when I don't feel the same. So this friend, let's call her "Barbara" has asked me to a part of a big event for her back in December. And in a moment of poor, very poor judgement, I happily said Yes! I will be a part of your big day. Later on - she told me I would be in a role of honor. It was at this moment I immediately knew I made a bad decision. So in the meantime, I have been a COMPLETE a-hole. I have not connected with the party, been basically MIA. Well fast forward to today, the big day is two months away. I have not purchased anything, talked to anyone, I have no idea what is going on.
What I need to do, is just break the news to "Barbara". I however can't think of how to do that. I feel horrible, and I know it will be disappointing, and I feel like a very bad person. I can't make this situation better and that is ticking me off!
Until next time,
LNC
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